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Stuck between a rock and a hard place

Well, Claire and Chris gave me cause for thought about my real reasons for my decision to move to Emerald, and why I could quite logically still move to Brisbane anyway, Emma as well.

It all made sense (it still does). I challenged Emma about it; why can't we move to Brisbane (or some other big city) anyway? Where there's a will, there's a way.

I realised at the same time that it is something that I want to do. Yes, its a shitty backwater town. Yes, its not doing my career any good (what career I have ... I don't care anymore, so long as I earn money for doing it). Is it Emma's fault for forcing my hand like this?

Partly.

We are so totally and deeply in love with each other; and this is something I will do partly because I love Emma. The other reason is ... hard to explain. Its a challenge to me. It might well be me trying to justify my decision, but if I can't make it on my own (or with Emma) in some backwater country town, what better chance do I have in the city?

I just don't see me wasting my life out there.

So, I'm sticking to my decision. I was to have left this morning, but I have an appointment to keep at 2pm tomorrow, so I'll leave after that.

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snofox
Jan. 8th, 2002 02:25 am (UTC)
Hope it all goes well for you! Both of you.

Raucaun is looking for work here and the rush to do so is cos I'm here... but he's doing it solely for his future (if he wasn't, I wouldn't let him move).

I wonder what will come of it all really and if we'll go the distance. He'll probably end up staying there. He's not prepared to take a job as a cleaner or lawnmower man ;)

LDR's suck big time... I guess there's only 2 ways they can go eh?
I'm happy for you both :)

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